Surface Tension

Introverted, deep inside,
My struggles I cannot hide.
It ain’t personal, please don’t take,
I’m just reserved, my space I make.

I hope for the best, but don’t believe,
My trust issues, hard to relieve.
I don’t mess with people, no regret,
Long nights embedded, I won’t forget.

I fear a lonely death, it’s true,
No one left, just blackness, no clue.
Can’t smoke my life, just roll away,
Compassion lost, in disarray.

It ain’t you, don’t take the blame,
My issues mine, I’m not the same.
Pointed fingers, it’s not fair,
Counted on you, but you’re not there.

Surrounding aura, a daunting view,
Obstacles, seem insurmountable, true.
Trying to move forward, leave the past,
Covering scars with money, it won’t last.

Introverted, I am on the surface,
Trying to cope, with my purpose.
Deep down, I know I must strive,
To keep moving forward, and stay alive.

The Shadow of Oblivion

Created: April 14, 2023

Poem request by Seraphine…. (I hated making this but I got paid so whatever)

 

In the depths of my heartbreak,
I wandered through a world so bleak,
My soul was shattered, my spirit torn,
And I wondered how I’d ever be reborn.

Betrayal came from someone close,
Who left me feeling like a ghost,
Haunted by memories of what we had,
And the pain that I couldn’t shake, oh so sad.

Regret filled my every thought,
As I wondered what I could have sought,
To prevent this heartache that I feel,
And to make our love story a different deal.

The cycles of life are hard to bear,
When it seems like there’s no one there,
To hold you close and ease the pain,
And remind you that the sun will rise again.

But in the midst of all this strife,
There’s a glimmer of hope in my life,
Compassion from a stranger’s heart,
Whose kindness is a work of art.

So I hold on to that ray of light,
And I try to see the world in a new light,
For though my heart may still ache,
There’s a chance that it can be remade.

And so I sing this ballad of woe,
Of a heart that’s been broken and low,
But also of the love and compassion that’s there,
To heal and bring back a heart that once was fair.

Realizzazione del falso amore

Created: March 10, 2023, 3:31 am

Realization comes with dawn's light,
Love once cherished, now feels untrue,
False love fades, truth shines bright.

Memories of kept me tight,
But in my heart, doubts grew and grew,
Realization comes with dawn's light.

I mistook your words as a knight,
A savior who would rescue,
False love fades, ruth shines bright.

Your promises, now out of sight,
My heart broke as I withdrew,
Realization comes with dawn's light.

Love's bloom now lost in its sight,
Like peals falling, turning blue,
False love fades, ruth shines bright.

I've let go, no more fights,
Now on a path that's new,
Realization comes with dawn's light,
False love fades, truth shines bright.

False Love? Part 3

(Aster responding to Mariana↓)

That’s fucking cute you know.

I see you’re hurt and feeling low,
But there’s something that you should know,
You’re not the damn victim you brainwashed yourself to be,
You’re just too blind to see.

You’ve spun a tale of hurt and pain
and placed the blame on me again,
But in reality,
it’s you who’s at fault,
For not understanding what I’ve taught.

I’ve given you love and honesty,
But you’ve twisted into something ugly,
You accuse me of lies and deceit,
When all I’ve done is try to keep us on our feet.

You cry your tears and claim your hearts broken,
But it’s all just a game that you’ve spoken,
To make me feel guilty for things I didn’t do,
And to manipulate the truth for the sake of you.

so go ahead and wallow in your sorrows,
But remember…
you’re the one who borrowed,
The love and trust that I’ve given for free,
And used it to create your own reality.

 

False Love? Part2

But now I see the truth so clear,
Your promises were insincere.
I was a fool to trust in you,
To believe in all the things you said you'd do.

(Mariana talking in her head as she cries o leave Aster's room↓)

My heart is heavy,
Burdened with pain, 
But I know that I must refrain,
From Holding onto false hope and lies,
And from believing your alibis.

I'll pick myself up and start anew,
I'll find the strength to get me through,
I'll leave behind this hurt and sorrow,
And look towards a brighter tomorrow.

For though my heart may be broken, 
I know that time will help somehow,
And one day soon I'll be able to say,
That I've moved on from this heartache.

False Love?

Created: Dec 22, 2022

(Mariana talking to herself as she walks to asters room)↓
My eyes are leaking a painful tear,
I have cried 
So many time
Silent and covert.
I have stared 
At nothingness,
Felt my heart Breaking.
It Screams a Terrible Sound,
A sound so loud but unheard from all around...

(Aster lets her in the room) ↓ 
I have waited 
For so many calls 
From you that never came.
I have believe
Everything that you said
Perhaps some weren't accurate.

I have been left
By you waiting for
What you promised to do.
It broke my heart again,
Because I thought, finally,
I'll stop being used by you

OC: Mariana Reeves                                              OC: Aster Redwood
FYI: Mariana talking to Aster