Everyone was worried about me
As I slipped away from sight
But sometimes you need to set yourself free
And chase your own light

Makayla spoke with concern
And accused me of being selfish
But my happiness had to be earned
And I wouldn’t let it perish

I knew I hurt her and others too
With my five failed attempts
But my mind was in a different hue
And life was taking too many lumps

Makayla’s voice cracked with emotion
As she recounted my frozen state
I had hurt her with my self-destructive notion
And I realized it was too late

But the mind can be a tricky thing
And it’s easy to get lost in the dark
It’s hard to make your spirit sing
When your heart is feeling stark

I tried to apologize
For not telling her the truth
But I could see the hurt in her eyes
As she called me out for my uncouth

I know I was a disappointment
And my actions caused them pain
But I needed to find my enjoyment
And I wouldn’t let it wane

So, Makayla, I’m sorry for it all
And I hope you can forgive
I’ll try to rise after my fall
And start anew and live.